I'm So Not Into You Anymore.
Posted by Maane Simpas | Posted in | Posted on 8:44 PM
things come and go, and so do people. sweet relationships, sooner or later, turn sour. a good laugh induces a downpour of tears at the end of the day. belief systems we have grown up with and gotten accustomed to change overtime.
just like everything in life, nothing is permanent. nothing stays. nothing lasts forever.
when something comes to us, we never own it permanently. a newborn baby, a hardly-earned sum of money. these things are just there for temporary enjoyment. we only have it until time comes when it is taken away from us. and when it needs to go, we just have to let it. because it was never ours. just like life leading to death, and money earned being spent.
the time that you came was also the time i knew that you will be leaving too. there were no time warnings and expiration dates that would signify that time IS up, it's over. so each time that i am with you are made sure to be the most wonderful and happiest times. because by the time you will be leaving, i only wanted to remember the good times, the laughter shared, the sweetest kisses and the tight embraces.
you became an addicting habit, like vices hard to quit even when really necessary. i cling, i succumbed, i developed a "SO-INTO-YOU" Dependency. i never thought that days would turn to weeks, months, and years. we survived the toughest times, we've been together for a long time. i know togetherness is not measured by quantity BUT by quality. ours was not an extraordinary romantic story, rather, it's stereotypical and overrated. i was happy, i wouldn't deny it. you were my best mate, you made me truly grateful.
and all the precautions about temporariness dissolved as i was stirred into the blissful moments we had. being with you made me believe that we could stay this way for a lifetime -- even if that's just too stupid and completely irrational to think about.
LOVE makes us believe in such stupid things:
- that the impossible could be made possible.
- that mistakes should be forgiven and forgotten.
- that being with someone would make us happy.
- that I LOVE YOU and SORRY makes everything alright even if it's undeniably not.
- that it is better to GIVE than to receive.
- that a person who loves us would never ever hurt us.
but then you did, you have hurt me. and that's when my beliefs changed.
and i would like to thank you (really, sincerely) because if i have not known you, i wouldn't learn these important lessons:
- happiness doesn't depend on being with someone. it is your own, and you make it.
- there's always one between the two of you who loves and cares about the relationship MORE than the other. ("and i'm tired of always being that person." sounds familiar, eh?)
- everyone has the capacity to break your heart. surprisingly (or not), the greatest heartache comes from the one whom you thought have loved you most.
- good friends who turn to be romantic couples can never be good friends again.
- persons who have come to hurt us the most are the very people responsible for the drastic changes in us. yes.
- never cling to something that needs to let go. love it while you have it and that's it.
- wounds do heal. you just need to have a very good immune system for it to heal easily and fast. (and i don't mean this physiologically but figuratively.)
- reminiscing good memories hurt like hell more than remembering bad ones. tested and proven.
- we're bound to get hurt sooner or later. the good news is, we get over it :)
- just because someone's missing, it doesn't mean that you have to put your life on hold. it doesn't mean that you have to be miserable all the time.
- and most importantly, NOTHING STAYS FOREVER. forever is just love intoxication-related illusion. PEOPLE ALWAYS LEAVE.
- and yes, before i forget, WHAT GOES UP MUST COME DOWN, if you know what i mean. :D
and so, with a lighter heart, i wish you well. with no hint of bitterness and resentment, i really do. and when i'll see you again, i wouldn't run away or hide from you. that's childish. instead, i would come up to you, call you by your name, and give you my sweetest smile. because finally, i could tell this to your face: I AM SO NOT INTO YOU ANYMORE. :D
just like everything in life, nothing is permanent. nothing stays. nothing lasts forever.
when something comes to us, we never own it permanently. a newborn baby, a hardly-earned sum of money. these things are just there for temporary enjoyment. we only have it until time comes when it is taken away from us. and when it needs to go, we just have to let it. because it was never ours. just like life leading to death, and money earned being spent.
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the time that you came was also the time i knew that you will be leaving too. there were no time warnings and expiration dates that would signify that time IS up, it's over. so each time that i am with you are made sure to be the most wonderful and happiest times. because by the time you will be leaving, i only wanted to remember the good times, the laughter shared, the sweetest kisses and the tight embraces.
you became an addicting habit, like vices hard to quit even when really necessary. i cling, i succumbed, i developed a "SO-INTO-YOU" Dependency. i never thought that days would turn to weeks, months, and years. we survived the toughest times, we've been together for a long time. i know togetherness is not measured by quantity BUT by quality. ours was not an extraordinary romantic story, rather, it's stereotypical and overrated. i was happy, i wouldn't deny it. you were my best mate, you made me truly grateful.
and all the precautions about temporariness dissolved as i was stirred into the blissful moments we had. being with you made me believe that we could stay this way for a lifetime -- even if that's just too stupid and completely irrational to think about.
LOVE makes us believe in such stupid things:
- that the impossible could be made possible.
- that mistakes should be forgiven and forgotten.
- that being with someone would make us happy.
- that I LOVE YOU and SORRY makes everything alright even if it's undeniably not.
- that it is better to GIVE than to receive.
- that a person who loves us would never ever hurt us.
but then you did, you have hurt me. and that's when my beliefs changed.
and i would like to thank you (really, sincerely) because if i have not known you, i wouldn't learn these important lessons:
- happiness doesn't depend on being with someone. it is your own, and you make it.
- there's always one between the two of you who loves and cares about the relationship MORE than the other. ("and i'm tired of always being that person." sounds familiar, eh?)
- everyone has the capacity to break your heart. surprisingly (or not), the greatest heartache comes from the one whom you thought have loved you most.
- good friends who turn to be romantic couples can never be good friends again.
- persons who have come to hurt us the most are the very people responsible for the drastic changes in us. yes.
- never cling to something that needs to let go. love it while you have it and that's it.
- wounds do heal. you just need to have a very good immune system for it to heal easily and fast. (and i don't mean this physiologically but figuratively.)
- reminiscing good memories hurt like hell more than remembering bad ones. tested and proven.
- we're bound to get hurt sooner or later. the good news is, we get over it :)
- just because someone's missing, it doesn't mean that you have to put your life on hold. it doesn't mean that you have to be miserable all the time.
- and most importantly, NOTHING STAYS FOREVER. forever is just love intoxication-related illusion. PEOPLE ALWAYS LEAVE.
- and yes, before i forget, WHAT GOES UP MUST COME DOWN, if you know what i mean. :D
and so, with a lighter heart, i wish you well. with no hint of bitterness and resentment, i really do. and when i'll see you again, i wouldn't run away or hide from you. that's childish. instead, i would come up to you, call you by your name, and give you my sweetest smile. because finally, i could tell this to your face: I AM SO NOT INTO YOU ANYMORE. :D
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